Fear is sewn into the fabric of our everyday lives with ever more intention by the web of voices in media governing all aspects of our lives. Most of us struggle to have any knowledge of ourselves at all because we haven’t figured out how to throw off the heavy blanket of fear and distraction bearing down on us every second we are awake. Maybe this is what will finally motivate us to seek higher knowledge—a way to conquer the fear; a way to make sense of the world.
We are afraid to ask questions of the medical “experts” who, when we think about it, rarely have considered the spiritual natures within and without us that play the most important roles in our health. We are afraid of being out in nature, of believing something different than our peers, of stepping off the competitive ladder of acquiring more and more things, of having children, of war, of climate change, of the government, of other people, of anything new. We are afraid.
In his book, How to Know Higher Worlds: A Modern Path of Initiation, Rudolf Steiner laid out guidelines to safely acquire higher knowledge. The excerpt below speaks about conquering fear, and he lists it as one of the requirements to pursue this path.
Candidates for initiation must bring with them courage and fearlessness. These have a certain relationship with each other and must be developed together. As esoteric students we must be able to look danger calmly in the eye and overcome difficulties without hesitation. When facing a danger, we should immediately be stirred to the conviction: “All fear is useless. I must not let it take hold of me. I must think only of what is to be done.” In fact, we must reach a point, in situations that earlier would have caused us to be afraid, in which the very idea of fear and lack of courage become things impossible for us to conceive in the core of our soul.
Such self-education in courage and fearlessness develops quite specific forces that we need for initiation into higher knowledge. Just as we need healthy nerves as physical beings to make use of our physical senses, so—as beings of soul—we need the strength that develops only in courageous and fearless natures. For as we penetrate the higher mysteries, we see things that were previously hidden from us by the illusions of the senses. In fact, it is a blessing that our physical senses do not allow us to perceive the higher truths. In this way they protect us from things that, if we saw them unprepared, would cause us great dismay, things we could not bear to see. As students of spiritual science, we must train ourselves to bear these sights.
In the process, we shall inevitably lose some of the supports that the external world provided for us as long as we were caught up in its illusions. What happens is literally the same as when people are made aware of a danger that was present for a long time, but which they knew nothing of. Unaware of the danger, they were of course also unafraid. But once they know about it, they are overcome with fear—even though the danger has not increased by their knowing about it.
The world’s powers are both destructive and constructive; the fate of sense-perceptible beings is to arise and pass away. The initiate must see and understand how these forces and this fate work themselves out. For this, the veil that lies before our spiritual eyes in ordinary life must be removed. Of course, we ourselves are closely interwoven with these forces and with fate. Our individual natures, like the world, contain destructive and constructive forces. As initiates, our own souls will be revealed before our seeing eyes as nakedly as all other things.
Students must not lose strength in the face of such self-knowledge. They must come to meet it with a surplus of forces. In order to have this surplus, we must learn to maintain our inward calm and certainty in difficult life situations and cultivate an unshakable trust in the good powers of existence.
We may often have acted out of conceit, but we now come to realize how unspeakable useless all vanity is to the initiate. We have been motivated by greed; now we realize how destructive greed is. We have to develop completely new grounds for acting and thinking. This is what involves courage and fearlessness.
Above all, we need to cultivate courage and fearlessness in the inmost depths of our thought life itself. We must learn not to be discouraged by failure. We should be able to think: “I will forget that I have failed again and will try once more as if it never happened.” In this way we struggle to the conviction that the sources of strength in the world that we can draw from are inexhaustible. Again and again, we aspire to the spirit, which will lift us up and carry us, regardless of how often our earthly being proves to be weak and powerless.
We must become capable of living into the future and not let any past experiences disturb our striving.
Excerpt from: How to Know Higher Worlds: A Modern Path of Initiation by Rudolf Steiner.
What does Steiner mean by living into the future? We can spend time thinking about this question within ourselves. This is one way to start down the path. We have lots of paths to choose from. Self-knowledge is required by all of them. If we begin to name the things we are afraid of and think about rising above them, we may get glimpses of living into the future.
These are scary times. Maybe we’re living in them for a reason. After all, we did choose to be here at this time. What are we supposed to be learning? We may want to read—or re-read—the book referenced above, which was the edition translated from the original German by Christopher Bamford. Getting started is a fear we may wish to overcome in this new and fraught year 2025.